Inspiration, Where have You Gone??

I have always been one whom draws inspiration from beautiful and inspired people and places and things (ha--I guess that would be inspirational noun). I need to be where I can just flow with the moment. I have always been a dreamer-and since I have children, there is very little time for following dreams. Oh, how I wish I had a studio. Music inspires my moods. And my children inspire me everyday.

But I had no space to create. I have no time to create--unless I want to stop a thousand times in one session.

I am telling myself to make it happen. I am going to make a list of all the things I want to do. And scratch them off one by one-whether small or big. I think it is important do do for yourself still, even after children. It helps you hold onto the person you are/were. I lost her after Brenna. But Brenna was worth it (as are the other sweets in my life).


But I feel that in order to keep that love and like feeling in your relationship-that person needs to still be there somewhere. And I am slowly pulling her to the surface. Of course, I have grown tremendously, and am not going to be the exact replica, but a better version.

A big sense of who I am still remains, and I had been trying to figure out who that was. Luckily I think I am now on a new journey of discovering my future.

I am very happy. There are things that frustrate me, but overall I am a happy person. And that makes me even more happy. I owe part of the to discover me again. To realizing (and remembering) I am not only a mother or wife, but I am also an individual.

Surrond Yourself with Good

As I have gotten older, I have realized I do not need people in my life that will bring me down. That I do have some great friends. And there is no need, or want, of fillers in my life. I am so blessed to have certain people in my life, and surrounding me.

I am a perfectionist, so everything I do-I always feel is not quite good enough. But I am still proud of the things I create, because most of the time I surprise myself. I come close to what I want the end result to be, so I am filled with positivity.
I have never been made to feel like someone with no talent, until recently. That is an awful feeling.

I think it is best to keep your head up, and stay persistant in your art. Whatever that may be. Love life, and the people in it. Don't discourage others, lift them up, and give encouragement.

That's what Dreams are made of

I wouldn't have wanted to spend today any other way. We grilled at Reed Bingham Park today. It was such a beautiful day out, and I am soo glad we decided to get out and have a family afternoon. The kids loved it, and so did Justin and I. It was quite crowded, but we managed to find an area out of the way with a grill. We really need to do things like that more often.

Senses Overload

I am soo very blessed to have three amazing children. I never wanted more than one child, but I got three. I never wanted children before the age of 27, but I had three at 24. And all the other plans I had were thrown out the window. But I wouldn't have it any other way.

Happy Mother's Day!

Where to Begin

Jumping head first into a business is scary stuff. Luckliy we have yet to take the full plunge. We are dipping our toes in first. ha.

Plus, financially we are not in a position to run with this right now. AS much as it would be awesome to drop everything and dive in, it just is not smart for us at this moment. I think we will probably be easing our way in for a while.

We still have a lot more to learn about photography and business. I am excited I will be taking a digital photography class and business class this summer (among more cores).

Need to take some shots of the kids ths weekend.

Summer is Approaching

Inspiration

I have found myself feeling torn between two worlds. The world of "reality" and the world of art. I am desperately trying to maintain both, but that is not how my brain works freely. I need to concentrate on one or the other.
Luckily, this summer I get to engage in all the art I desire. That is all I will be doing (besides taking care of my family and school work). I can not wait. I am soo excited. It will be a lot easier to be inspired when I am engulfed with creativity. I will finally get this huge canvas painted. I will finally get these commissioned paintings finished. I will finally get to work on what I want. And that means being able to get a little more creative with my photography.
One of the classes I am taking this summer is digital photography (and another is business). I am so happy that I decided to do a double major and incorporate my art degree into my life.
There are soo many things I want to do for my future, but I suppose they will all happen with time.