Lurking

I frequent many blogs. And etsy shops. I love finding inspiration from others creativity. And lets face it--the internet has a vast world of creation out there. I recently searched jewelry on etsy and I came across this awesome necklace...



So...like most people do (I am sure)I clicked on it and then looked around the store. And I found several other pieces I LOVED! I love vintage and vintage looks.







The pieces are very reasonably priced. Unfortunately I have no money flow right now, but maybe some of this stuff will still be available when I do.

You can also look at her other store here. And read her blog here.

Daydream Believer....

I'm a dreamer. Always have been. What can I say? But unfortunately I have little time and money to invest upon these many dreams. Nonetheless--that does not make them any less important to me. I still hold on to all the things I dream of and I know one day the time and money will come to my rescue and set them free. Until then here is a list:

1. Sew the kids some clothes
2. Sew some stuffed animals/toys
3. Paint 100 paintings
4. Put art up around the house
5. Sew curtains for kids' rooms
6. Exercise 4 times a week
7. Start an organic garden
8. Recycle
9. Make weekly or monthly menu
10. Save coupons
11. Buy mostly organic/hormone free foods
12. Order organic snacks and candy from Amazon
13. Sell used clothes on Ebay weekly
14. Donate stuff to goodwill
15. Update personal blog atleast twice a week.
16. Reach my goal weight of 130 lbs
17. Tummy tuck/breast aug and lift
18. Create an inspiration book
19. Sew a quilt
20. Buy a water filter pitcher to save money and waste
21. Make my own jewelry again
22. Sew some of my own clothes
23. Visit Savannah
24. Take kids to beach yearly
25. Take kids to Disney
26. Go to live comedy show
27. Have date night with Justin atleast once a month
28. Make a recipe book
29. Write a book
30. Visit Canada

I am sooo sure I can add more to this list, but I need to get going. I have a 2 year old hanging on my arm.

Party Planning

We had Emily's 2nd birthday party this past weekend. It was so pretty on the deck with the canopy of lights. But there was an absence of a lot of invited guests. Which makes me wonder if I should start rethinking my invitation lists (I mean if you haven't come to a party 3 times in a row--what does that mean). And if you are not going to make it, why not call? Anyways...the few people that did attend-thank you. I had a fun time planning this party--but wish I would have had more funds to do everything I wanted.

Life-Altering decisions

SCARE me!! It freaks me out knowing that my decisions affect other people that are the most important to me. I don't want to screw anything up and make their lives anything less than awesome.
So far Justin and I have done a pretty good job of keeping out heads above water, especially in our short time of gaining three little lives to look after. Of course we want much beeter for our children (and for ourselves), so decisions must be made. And these things are not easily come by. I scares me to think I might make the wrong choice, and then our future will be much less than awesome.

I have never been a good decision maker anyways. Especially with BIg ones--like the decision I am faced with now--What to major in--What will my career be?

Well, as I have mentioned before on here-Our main goal and dream is to open a photography studio. And we will of course continue to work toward that goal, but in the meantime we have a family to worry about. We have bills to pay and children to clothe and feed. So when I say career choices-I am thinkning in the back of my head "fall-back career".

I thought I knew what I wanted to do--teach. But with the economy so strung out and schools losing more and more funding, and jobs getting harder to come by--I am really starting to rethink my decision. Luckily I only have a year of schooling behind me. Soo...here i am thinking that possibly I could go to school to be an RN.
Yes--A nurse. When I was little I wanted to be a doctor (among other things which also included teacher) so maybe this isn't completely pulled out of the air?

I really shouldn't care where I pulled it from I guess. I just want somethign that I will enjoy and still have time to spend with my children. And I want something that will provide a good income for my family. And that I will more easily find a job.

I think I have it all figured out, but it still makes me wonder. My sister just finished school to be an RN-and she will ehlp me a lot. So, I think this is it. And I feel good about it.

First comes..what?..

Being young, married and having three children is no easy feat. No one tells you that there are tons of other young married couples with children (and maybe even without) that are in the same boat. You are all fighting to keep it above water.

I am coming to the realization that Justin and I will more than likely be married for many years to come. We have come a long way in our five years of marriage. And I am so happy for this. There were time I thought we'd never make it, that we were bound to end up divorced. But we both stuck it out and made it to where we are now.

We still have out days and moments where we want to pinch (and sometimes maybe even punch) the other, but behind all the madness we still know we love eachther. It is hard though. It takes a lot from both sides. And marriage itself is work, but when you add children to the mix you enter a whole new realm of obstacles to hurdle.

Regardless, I love my family and I thank God for each and every one of them every night. This is my life and I am happy.

The party is ON

I am excited. I finally figured out what to do for Emily's 2nd birthday party. And I am thrilled. haha. We are doing it on a Friday evening. I figured since it will be so hot out, we should do it when the sun is starting to set in an effort to not die of a heat stroke. I have a lot of ideas, and I am about to go look online for more and for places and things to get/make. I have the invitations ready too! Now I need to get a few addresses and mail them out. Hopefully I will get this party rolling.

Spinning

As my children sit on the couch watching television, I can feel my heart slowing to a normal pace. I need to feel that I am not alone in this parenting business. But it scares me to think I will always be. It angers me that he is still laying, eyes closed, all snug, in our bed. Sure he was awake later than I, but only for his enjoyment.

The stress begins to wear me down, and I can feel it tugging at my chest. My mind all contorted and strangled. I really know the living definition of overwhelmed.

Cleaning messes is part of the game. But there is something about the consistency of one half doing all the work. No wonder she is always angry mouthed with no smiles or laughter. It has been drained. But she longs to have a constant smile stretched across her face. Breathing would be easier. Mind would feel clearer.

Party Plans

I am always so behind on planning parties, actually behind on most everything. It is past due for me to get the ball rolling on Emily's 2nd birthday party. I have been pondering what we will do to celebrate her turning two years old. I think we will have an ice-cream party here at the house. I have several ideas on decorations. How I just need to get on it and make them. I need to get invitations filled out and sent off also. But I guess we should decide on a date and time. This is such a crazy month for birthdays. We have several other birthday parties to attend this year. AAHh! It stresses me to just think about it.

It's been 2 years....

I can not believe my baby is turning 2 this month. In two weeks to be exact. WOW!! Time flies. Which having two other children, I am no stranger to how fast the little babes grow. But oh my! She is my last little one. No more babies. No more babies to nurse.


I am looking forward to no more diapers. And having a tad more freedom from the constant dependency. But it still saddens my heart to know that I can no longer have another child, even if I wanted. But that was a choice I chose. I felt it was more important to be here with all my health with the three children I already have, instead of risking my health to potentially have another child. It was an easy decision, but that doesn't mean I do not get the urge to grow another baby and nurse that baby, and watch he/she grow.


But just as fast as these feeling come they flow out faster. I am reminded that I indeed have my hands very full already. And that I am so close to my three loves having a little more independence. Now granted, Emily has a ton of independence, but it is not warranted. She is scavenger. This child rarely asks for help, and when she does it is because she has already tried on her own. Now do not misread our parenting in this. This is just how the child is wired I guess. I would much rather her come to me with everything, and I never have to worry about what in the world she is getting into. There would be far less messes around here to interrupt the day.


Emily is a very smart (almost) 2 year old. She talks better than Trent in some cases. She loves to color (on her furniture and self mostly). She is quite stubborn (which is a household dilemma). She is so tiny for all the spunk she carries. She adores her sister and brother (mostly). She is very funny, and knows this.


I could not believe it when I found out I was pregnant with Emily. And I was a little scared (since I had placenta abruptio with Trent). But I am so happy to have her in our lives. She totally completes our family.