I have been working out for the past few weeks. I have not changed my diet though. And there was one week my work-out-buddy and I only went to the gym one day. I have lost a total of 7 pounds from my starting weight. This is not very much considering I needed to lose about 100 lbs, but it is a start. It shows me that with harder work and determination I will reach my destination.
Unlike some, I do not have days I wish I didn't have to work out. The days I can't I feel down. That is one more day of feeling like poop, and not being a healthy weight.
I have struggled with my weight pretty much my entire life. When I was about 4 my parents got divorced, so I would spend 6 weeks out of every summer with my dad. These 6 weeks consisted of my being able to eat as I wanted, no restrictions. And since there were several at my mom's, I blew this way out. There were several summers I gained 10 lbs, and then I'd lose it when I went back to my moms. My weight has fluctuated for the better part of my existence.
I have never been happy with the way I looked. At 115lbs, and wearing a size 2, I thought to myself "just 10 more lbs and I will be happy". Luckily I no longer feel that way. I think I felt the best about my body when I started dating Justin. He always made me feel great about myself, and still does. I was about 130lbs (a size 6) for the beginning of our relationship, and that is my goal now. I think I looked great that size. I was a healthy weight for my height and still had curves.
I think the most importatnt thing about weight is to be happy and comfortable in your body and to be healthy. Having gestational diabetes with all three pregnancies, I am at very high risk of developing it later on in life. And being overweight only makes those odds go up. This is just one of the many reasons I want to lose weight. I don't really like to say "lose weight". I have been saying "becoming healthy", because that is what I feel is the important issue with it all. And also because I do not want my daughters to feel the way I felt growing up. I do not want my children to be concerned with their weight. That in itself is unhealthy.
I will try to keep this updated with my progress. I do not really feel very comfortable disclosing my starting weight, but I will. I am 5ft 2in and I started out at 228lbs (according to the gym scale). My BMI lastnight was 40.1-very high.